"you know, one foot in front of the other. through leaves, over bridges . . . "

i tumblr'd about this already but whatever. if you're like me and spent time reading all the compositions in Sightlines 10 we'd probably never cover in english class, you'll be familiar with this--i was pleasantly surprised to find this filmed interpretation of kurt vonnegut's "long walk to forever" on youtube. i was cooking up a rein my head as i was watching this, but then i saw the ending, and instead i found myself bawling into a box of tissues and crying "OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD NO" over and over, soooo . . . back to the point. if you're like me and cry at every movie, even Finding Nemo, you've been warned. :')

and the acting, oh, my heart. so natural.

parts two and three are found here and here, respectively, and the short story is here. (you might want to turn your speakers down or off because the site features background music, LOL. annoying at first, but albeit rather appropriate for the impression i got upon reading the story for the first time OKAY i am rambling) i would recommend--no, you HAVE to read the short story first, actually. ;D but, you know, whatever floats your boat.

Everyday, I find myself stuck in this broken environment. It’s kinda like the Twilight zone, but Twilight doesn’t describe this shit zone I call the friend zone. This friend zone zones me out of my own zone and i start stuttering and babbling cause I can’t speak because anger is filling my vocal chords with a burst of heat at the temperature of 60 degrees celcius bottled up in the angry bottle that was my heart. It’s like a creation of new elements as if science combined with everything inside to create this giant zone where certain feelings for another ceases to exist due to the elements of ignorance and denial. Where I’m denied access to exploring your mind in other ways cause you grabbed me and threw me into this zone of friends, locked the gate and threw away the key. Cause see, you don’t know how it affects me when all you talk about is how you don’t think you can ever get a boy or how this boy is so great when this boy standing here is one that’ll provide all you need. It’s as if Taylor Swift’s “You Belong With Me” has become the theme song of my life. But this love story is anything but one. Cause when they have a smile that can light up a thousand cities, it isn’t worth shit if nobody in those cities appreciate the gesture. Got me feeling like this jester, only around to entertain. As if my voice can’t be heard because it’s overshadowed by voices that can’t make a decision.

IM GOING TO FINISH MY NEWEST POEM TONIGHT NO MATTER WHAT.

I learned plenty.

1. Day & Age sucks.
2. I took on this acute awareness of drummers, drumming, drums, and what it means to be Filipino. I figure it will help me in the long run.
3. Blood is thicker than water, family is family and all that, but families are also despicably human. Conflict, conspiracy, etc, ever worse than high school dramu, will run and last considerably deeper.
4. People are simply ( insert endearing // annoying trait here ) by nature.
5. He is annoyingly endearing.
6. There are such things as caring too much, caring the wrong way and not caring the way you should. There is also the prospect of caring when you're not supposed to, which ties in to caring too much and proves to be detrimental to all parties involved. And since when did caring about a certain someone become a competition?
7. You can't be good at everything, but damn if you aren't good at something.
8. Zachary Quinto usually means good things.
9. So do the 1960's
10. There's always going to be somebody who's there for you, even when the someone who's usually there for you isn't. ♥
11. Personal space has become more apparent. So hey don't glance, don't stare, don't brush past them, don't get too close to them lest you invade a sort of personal security that could be the only thing they really treasure at this point. (and of course, by they I do mean I.)
12. Unless they want you to, and in your case they really don't.
13. Honest to God, cross my heart, punch it in the jeans, it is possible for people to lack self-awareness completely beyond the physical. This is when we get into the ( insert endearing // annoying trait here ) aspects of themselves, and this, of course, is one of those 'whether you like it or not' deals.
14. Shit Change happens. You can't ever really take anybody back, unless of course you went with them or are that 'anybody'. In which case, nobody can ever really take you back.
15. Change happens and it will be good.
16. You can never truly get a fandom out of your head. Despite that the thought makes me shudder, I still find Naruto fun to draw.
17. When all else fails, Neopets won't!
18. Units are units. Christmas, oddly, is also Christmas and it will bring you together
19. Rolling Stone? You mean the band? The Bob Dylan song? Spin Magazine for life!
20. The ones who are truly blessed are the ones with human families, and care the right amount in the right way; who are annoying // endearing by nature and know what they are good at.

I won't let this be the last entry of the year; it is so moody! D :

• Units. I miss the feeling of being ahead. I haven't had that all school year. Even though I often whine about the mad amounts of Asian parental pressure that comes with this ish, I can't deny that some deep-rooted part of me misses all the checks in my Unit Tracker that really should've been there months ago.
• Countless trips to Agincourt library. ♥♥ And at least two books read!
• Manga + DSi + hot chocolate. 'Nuff said.
• Finally making use of all the 35mm film stashed in my drawer.
• Movies, all the time. Must-see: The Princess and the Frog. I have this huge Disney Princess-shaped hole in my heart that needs filling.
• Going back to what I'm good at: design.
• A new decade (read: moving on to better things).

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Oh and

No matter how much life's disproving me as of late, I really want to believe that some things last. It would just be good to believe in a forever, you know?

PRE-FALL 2010 COLLECTIONS...Part 1
CHANEL - ZAC POSEN



A Shang-hai Surprise from the esteemed House of Chanel...

I have decided that, as the interim collections - both Pre-Fall and Resort - are now becoming more and more important, and widespread amongst the fashion designers of this world, I am going to start featuring my red carpet picks from them both, as well as the Spring/Summer and Autumn/Winter Fashion Weeks that I currently look at...
As I discovered, there was an amazingly beautiful quantity of dresses that were absolutely red carpet-worthy, and probably will be chosen before the awards season is finished..
In Part 1, I have included the red carpet dresses from all the designers who had the usual small preview-style collection for Pre-Fall...in the second part, I have taken three designers for whom the title Pre-Fall appears to mean another full-size major collection, and therefore warrant a longer look... ( Read more... )

A BEAUTIFUL SIGHT
WE'RE HAPPY TONIGHT
WALKIN IN A WINTER WONDERLAND